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its been a while since i posted on here. the summer was fun until july ended. i had some firsts this summer. first time going to disneyland. first time k-holing. first time going to la. first time getting lyme disease (actually getting it, had a tick blahblah). first time flying on a tiny plane. i quit my job at the bookstore to become full-time influencer. jk jkjkjkjkjkjk. j and i went to minnesota, then california to visit their family.
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ii turned 26 ;-/
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j & i on twirling in minnesota |
today, i was going through some of my old journals from the past few years and i was struck by how sad they are. here is some of a list i wrote in 2019 about things to change in myself in 2020:
anywaysssss, not to be like me me memememememmeme but yeah time is beautiful, we can change. still sad sometimes, but i think i have a lot more self-confidence than i did in 2019/2020. my love language is giving and receiving gifts, but i also think that extends to external validation. i want to validate others and make them feel good, but in turn, i search for praise from the world. in my 2019 journal, i wrote that one of my goals for 2020 was to "have a healthy relationship with instagram." cringee but true. i started my @the.realrealreal in 2020 and its made me feel like i get to connect with yall.